26-09-2017 by 

It’s been a long 3 weeks since my operation. I have ridden an emotional rollercoaster after the shock I suffered. I haven’t got any results yet and don’t expect to for a while, which I see as a good sign. I cried worrying over what was wrong, then decided that worrying wasn’t going to make a difference. The crying served its purpose as a release for how I was feeling and afterwards I felt much better, so it’s good to have a cry and a rant when you need one. I decided after my emotional outburst that enough was enough and I would come back stronger than ever- big mistake. I tried to be strong too soon and suffered a set-back, back to the sofa for me.

I learned a few lessons while sitting on my backside for so long. We all did. There were so many lessons and positives to come out of the situation, I had to share them with you.

Life is full of surprises – (loved Cilla)- you never know what is around the corner, so do the things that make you happy – NOW. I can honestly say, hand on heart, if anything had happened to me I would have had no regrets. I have had a ball so far and intend on doing so for the rest of my life. That doesn’t mean being irresponsible though, I’m not suggesting you don’t pay the bills to fund a holiday as obviously the plan is to be here for a long time.

My children learned that mum isn’t an invincible super hero after all – my mask slipped. It was good for them to realise that life shouldn’t be taken for granted too, or that people aren’t going to be around forever. They certainly had to fend for themselves a bit more than usual and they coped brilliantly. I was never under the impression they wouldn’t be able look after themselves, but to see it in action, cemented what I had hoped, that they could in fact cope without me.

My lovely husband showed me just how much he cared, by going out of his way to help and make sure I was okay. This is of course expected, but when you see just how much someone loves you by their actions there’s no better feeling. I know as soon as we can, we are off for some ‘us’ time as it’s important not to neglect your love life either, which is easily done in the chaos of daily life.

My body has taught me I’m not 18 anymore and things don’t just whip back into shape. What I have realised is how much I loved exercising and not to take it for granted. It is not only great to keep fit, but it gets rid of stress, inspires me to do better and I would be gutted if I couldn’t move as much as I wanted to. While I have been sitting on the sofa and not able to exercise my body, I have been exercising my mind instead. I love to learn new things and am like a sponge when it comes to things that interest me. I found an amazing free site that if you have a lap top, it didn’t work so well on the I-pad, you might be interested in called Alison.

I’m definitely on the mend now and am raring to go this weekend as I am photographing a wedding. I hope you can learn something from my experience as I have. Whenever something bad happens, if we can find the lesson and the positives, however small, then we learn and grow.




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